Posted: November 9, 2015 in Uncategorized

Questionable. That was the sermon title today. The message has bounced around in my head and heart all day. Has God ever asked me to do something questionable?

Yes. Yes, He has. 

I questioned God the day He asked me to adopt 2 children. (Truthfully, sometimes I still question Him!) I really questioned Him when Dennis seemed more accepting of the thought than me! I was like, “What?!”! His reluctance was going to be my way out! 

Of course, as Pastor Phillip pointed out today…there are things we do when we feel like God is asking us to do something questionable. We make sure we are hearing God’s voice. We make sure what we are being asked to do lines up with Scripture.  

Yes. I already knew the answers. I knew God was speaking and I knew nothing He was asking was against His Word! In those initial days, my faith was small. How could we provide for 2 more? Where would they sleep? I was not equipped to parent these children who had been through so much. So on and so on…

Yet God remained persistent. Did He answer all my questions? No and yes. Did He answer each one directly? No. But I had the only answer I needed…Jesus.  Jesus will always be bigger than my problems and more than capable of providing and equipping and meeting needs!!

I stepped out in obedience. I trusted my Savior. He is sufficient. With each step of obedience, God grows my faith. Some steps of obedience have been painful, some sad, some joyful!  

I believe many of the things God asks us to do are questionable. Questionable when compared to the ways of this world! The Lord declares that His ways are not our ways, His thoughts are not our thoughts! Isaiah 55:8-9 

One thing I know for certain, I don’t ever want to miss His voice. I want to be ready to serve and follow in obedience. The best way to know His voice from all that demands my attention? To devote myself to reading and applying His Word and to devote myself to prayer! I am blessed that the Creator of this universe desires to commune with me through His Word and prayer! 

Happy Birthday

Posted: October 21, 2015 in Uncategorized

Today my mother-in-law would have been 86. Today I choose to remember her legacy of gentleness, humility, silliness, and unconditional love! Mary did not treat me like a daughter-in-law; instead, she embraced me as a daughter! Mary only saw the good in others. She loved each of her children and her grandchildren with the utmost of her being! I will be forever grateful for the wisdom she imparted…the life we can all hope to emulate- a woman who honored her Savior and loved without reservation- a woman who, without any doubt, rests in the peaceful presence of her Heavenly Father! 

7 months ago…

Posted: October 14, 2015 in Uncategorized

It was a long day

Overcast. Rain. Clouds.


Surrounded by family and friends, yet alone in my thoughts.

Months, weeks, days, hours, minutes of prayer, fasting and feasting on His Word.

Did He hear me? The shouts from the depths of my soul? 

He not only heard me, He held me. He still holds me.

7 months ago…my heart ached as my grandmother was laid to rest…and my heart ached as my mother took her last breaths.

Tears that refused to form then…fiercely appear now…randomly and unexpectedly…

Tears that remind me…life is precious and short…I must not waste it on the things of this world…

Tears that remind me…Jesus wept…He loved me enough to bear my griefs and carry my  sorrows…He loved me so much that He took my sin upon Himself and He carried it to the cross! 

The One who weeps with me is the very One who wipes away my tears!



Posted: September 20, 2015 in Uncategorized

Today I worked at the ball field all day…along with lots of other volunteers.  I spent a lot of the day at a gate that was used for handicapped access and officials, etc. This was not the main entrance. Many times throughout the day I heard the same comment from those passing through that way…a reference to me being the gatekeeper …

I wanted to allow everyone through that gate but that couldn’t happen. I started thinking about John 10, Matthew 7:13-14, and John 14…Jesus is the gate, He is the Way, the Truth, the Life. No one comes to the Father except through Christ. Jesus is our Shepherd, He calls His own sheep by name, the sheep follow Him for they know His voice! 

There is no greater peace than knowing Jesus as my personal Savior! Rescued and redeemed by His sacrificial death on the cross, I can approach the gate with the confidence that the Shepherd knows my name and I can enter by that narrow gate…for the gate is narrow and the way is hard that leads to life…

Do you know the One who is the Way, the Truth, the Life? The One who gave His very life for YOU? Have you heard His voice?  

Ephesians 2:8-10 For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast. For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.

Christ Alone is Sufficient!

Posted: September 13, 2015 in Uncategorized

God never ceases to amaze me…how the little pieces of my day, while seemingly haphazard to me, have been ordered by my Creator! Psalm 90:12-teach me to number my days that I might gain a heart of wisdom! 

Let me be straightforward, it is imperative that we cultivate our love of God’s Word and develop a habit of prayer during the ‘good times’ in our lives; so that during ‘crisis times’ we can draw strength and comfort from Christ as naturally as drawing our next breath! 

Earlier today, I had a family emergency…my daughter, who is an hour and a half away at college, had a severe allergic reaction to a medication and had to go to the ER. As I was heading to the hospital, I texted a few friends/prayer warriors to please be praying for her. For reasons unknown to me, not one person got my texts… So for an hour and a half, I drove (rather quickly)…and wondered why none of my friends had responded…I couldn’t open my Bible while I was driving…but I could pray and pray I did! God used this time to remind me that He Alone is sufficient. How grateful that events from this past year had reignited a passion within me to pursue His Word! God’s truths were etched on my heart and He brought them to mind as I prayed. His promises brought me peace.  And not by chance, I had just attended a funeral service where Hope was proclaimed! Those words of hope and truth soothed my soul. 

God is good. God is faithful.  God heard the prayers of a mother’s heart and He alone was the answer to my prayers. 

As I traveled back home this evening, this song came on the radio…nothing is more true…

“Your Words”

Let me hear Your words  Above all other voices 

Above all the distractions in this world

Let me hear Your words  Above all of the voices 

Above all the distractions in this world

For Your words bring life

And Your voice speaks promises

Lord, Your love offers more

Than anything else in this world

Your words give us life that’s never ending

Your words bring us love that never fails

Everything else will fade away

But what will remain

Are Your words

Let us speak Your words

More than ours, more than ever 

Let us share Your love with all the world 

The grass will wither and the flowers will fall

But the word of our God will last forever

The grass will wither and the flowers will fall

But the word of our God will last forever


Posted: September 9, 2015 in Uncategorized

Am I a person of integrity? God has been speaking to my heart this week…

Whoever walks in integrity walks securely

The integrity of the upright guides them

The righteous walks in his integrity, blessed are his children after him

Those who act faithfully are His delight

Do not swerve to the right or to the left, turn away from evil

By this I know that you delight in me, my enemy will not shout in triumph over me! You have upheld me because of my integrity, and set me in Your presence forever.  Psalm 41:11-12

Act honorably in all things. Hebrews 13:18

…till I die I will not put away my integrity from me. I will hold fast my righteousness…Job 27:4-6

May my conduct be honorable and glorify God. 1 Peter 2:12

A pure heart and sincere faith. 1 Timothy 1:5

Hospitable, lover of good, self controlled, upright, holy, disciplined.  Titus 1:8

Trust in my Lord without wavering.

Hearer and doer of the Word!

And if I want to claim the King as my friend… I should strive for purity of heart and gracious speech…
Oh how I fail in my own strength, but oh how You are magnified in my weaknesses…   God search my heart, mold me, break me, and fill me with your Holy Spirit…may my integrity be founded in a passionate pursuit of prayer and seeking You in the Word!

Act 13

Posted: August 18, 2015 in Uncategorized

so…I just listened to yesterday’s message…wow! Well actually I have listened to it twice and then studied the Scriptures for the past hour or so. 

Acts 5:29 “…we must obey God rather than men”.  If we are to proclaim this, then first we must be certain that we have established a pattern of obeying men. Hebrews 13:17 & 18 “Obey your leaders…pray for them…”  Our integrity is dependent upon our actions – ALL of our actions! 

Submission and obedience ultimately belong solely to God! Submit is defined as the act of giving over or yielding to the power or authority of another. Obey is defined as complying with or following commands, restrictions, instructions, etc. Submission is an inward attitude that requires love, respect and a willingness to yield to another. Obedience is an outward action that is independent of a personal relationship. 

A hardened heart resists direction from God and others! Create in me a clean heart, O God! I am sorry…for my pride, for my selfishness, my bad attitude…and the list goes on! Create in me a clean heart, O God! I want to be a Jesus revolutionary- nailing my flesh to the cross! Create in me a clean heart, O God! Help me speak the Truth in love, without attacking! The Truth can pierce the soul. The Truth can set us free. The Truth is Jesus! 

The works of God cannot be stopped! With or without me, God will prevail! The fact that God loved me enough to desire a relationship with me, a relationship only possible through the sacrificial death and resurrection of His Son Jesus, grips my heart with a burning desire to submit to and to obey whatever the Lord requires of me! 

Psalm 51:10 Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me.